Are you a whore?
Well this is a question I ask myself at a lot.
Weird right? Trust me, it’s nothing compared my other strange ideas.
So anyways, you might ask me, “why do you think that you are a whore?” Well, as with everything in life, it requires a bit of an explanation.
The troubles all started when I began using messenger. Wait what? Messenger? Yup, you heard me right. But what does an innocent simple app has to do with all this? Well, in short everything. See, every time I talk with someone on messenger, I feel hollow and kinda unsatisfied, just like a whore after a long day at work ; ) The thing is, all of my conversations that happen online feel empty to me. Maybe because I am strange as fuck, or I just like talking to people in person, the whole idea of online conversation seems repulsive. Talking with someone on my phone is like having sex with a slut; it’s fun for a while but you don’t get much out of it (not that I’ve tried tho).
See, don’t get me wrong here, chatting on the phone is convenient. It has made talking to our friends and families a whole lot easier. But that is the reason why I dislike messenger so much. But wait, isn’t “easy” a good thing? Well, for me, in this case, NO.
The thing with conversations being so easy is that it looses it’s value. I mean, if something was so easy to do, would anyone value it? Probably not. For example, if getting into Harvard was so easy, would anyone give a fuck if you got in? Definitely not. And that’s why it’s hard and that’s why we care. The same thing is with conversations, maybe it’s just me but, I can recall almost all of my real life conversations with my close friends but none of my online conversations with the same people. Why? Because online conversations have lost their value. We simply don’t give many fucks about our “phone conversations”. But in real life it’s different, and that’s why I like it so much.
See, in real life, having a conversation requires a degree of commitment, kinda like in a loving marriage (unlike online conversations, which I remind you, is like living in a relationship with a prostitute.) If you want to have a conversation in real life, there are no pauses or do overs; what you say in real life, you can’t take back, things matter in real life! unlike in messenger where you can even delete your messages. It’s fast and there are no pregnant pauses in between and that’s why is authentic; you have room to make mistakes, it’s imperfect and real. The other thing about real life conversations is that you really have to commit to a conversation for it to work out. Unlike in messenger where you can have conversations with 5 different people at the same fucking time. Now, it really sucks the joy out of a conversation if the person I am talking to, is talking to 4 different people like me at the same time. It’s deeply insulting to be honest. Imagine your husband or wife, apart from sleeping with you, sleeps with 4 of your neighbors! How would you feel? Certainly awful, and that’s what it feels like lol. It’s not even about commitment, it’s about general courtesy (which everyone expects from everyone), if I am talking to YOU, I expect you to talk to ME. That’s how it is in real life, but sadly not so much online.
It makes me sick when I think of the times when I am talking with someone while doing something else, like watching a Youtube video. I mean, imagine the same situation in real life; you are with your friend talking about how your day went but he is just kinda listening while watching some stupid video on his phone. How would you feel? You would feel bad. You would feel like you are not being valued by the other person. Well, that is the same thing in messenger. The rule is, when I am talking to you, can you please fucking talk to me too? I mean, I want to do something else, but I am also talking with you because well, you started a conversation but it would be rude not continue it. Do you realize how fucked up it is? It’s better to not have a conversation than to have one half halfheartedly. And I am guilty of it too.
I am so guilty in fact, one time I was watching porn, and then a chat head pops up. It’s my friend who wants to talk. Now the thing in my mind is, (option ‘a’) do I reply …. while I am watching. Or (option ‘b’) do I finish jerking off… then reply? Or (option ‘c’) for the sake of my friend’s dignity, pause in the middle, finish talking and then continue later? It was a very complex question which required a high level to thinking. But which option did I choose? No one knows ; )
The other thing that really annoys me is, half the time you send that laughing emoji, you are not even laughing or find the subject even mildly funny! You just fucking abuse that emoji because it’s easier to do that then to explain how you really feel. All those LOLs and ‘hehe’ or ‘haha’ are fake as fuck half the time. For every sentence, it begins with a fake ‘haha’ or ‘hehe’. I am like WTF is wrong with us? Why are we like this online? And the scary thing is, Why is everyone okay with it?
Maybe because we all are fake, and when the majority does anything…. anything!, it automatically becomes normal. Since we all are fake, it’s okay to be fake because one one calls out anyone for being fake. (Or maybe only I am fake lol, who knows?) And since we are all messenger whores, who have sex (conversations) with multiple partners at the same time, everyone is fine with being one.
Hehe so ladies and gentlemen! I present you the truth (not that it matters lol).
I am a whore and don’t you laugh you dumb ass, because you are one too ; )
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*In no way I intend to disrespect women or those who are sex workers by using words like slut and whore. Some people have needs and circumstances that push people into this line of work, and I have utmost respect for these people and their struggles.
Honestblogs 